My Choice

Today, I am choosing to survive. This past week has left me feeling much like the weather. Grey and lifeless. I just really feel like I have been sucking at life lately and its been hard to pick myself up. It is just one of those dumb funks we all go through, but I really can't wait for this one to pass. Growing up has been one of the most odd and exciting roller coaster rides I have been on so far in my life. I believe in a world that is black and white. I believe there are true lines that define what is right and wrong and that it isn't determined by each individuals opinion. This I know to be true. However, that being said, I keep catching myself surrounded by so much grey. It throws me off every time. All of a sudden I have no idea how the edges got so blurred again. Unfortunately, I feel as if this is something I will be experiencing until my dying day. So today..this week, I am just going to survive. If I can survive this week, maybe I can move on to live the next. Lord, give me strength for the unknown plans and lessons you are teaching me this day.