A Long Hard Look

Christianity has never been an easy path. From the moment of creation, things kind of got out of hand and went off the deep end. However, if it wasn't worth all the difficulty, no one would stick with it. 

Recently, I have met some new people that have made my life go into complete chaos. In a great way.

 I have always considered myself a good Christian girl. I know my stuff and can banter with anyone trying to discredit my beliefs. I hold my own pretty well. Okay, please just look at those last three sentences. What pride. What credit I give myself. Maybe it's just coming into adulthood or my trials(aka lessons from above) or someone bluntly telling me, but I have zero idea of what I'm talking about. I kind of got a good look at myself through others eyes and what I saw was not the good little Christian I had told myself I was. I am thee perfect stereotype of a good "PK." I grew up in a Lutheran home, raised by Lutheran parents, went to a Lutheran grade school and a Lutheran high school. Okay, so I'm a great Lutheran through and through. Way to go, Grace. However, what kind of Christian are you? Lets dig really deep here and take a long hard look at who you are. And whose you are. The irony in desiring to be a humble Christian is the pride of doing it. True humility comes through and only from Jesus himself. These new friends of mine are some of the most selfless people I have ever met. Everything they do, they do as an instrument of Christ. They live in the world with the knowledge they are not of it. There is no pompous notion of "we good Christians" or credit to themselves. It is about Jesus. That is it. I sat and talked for a couple hours talking history and the bible with one of my new friends this past weekend. He went into a near frenzy of excitement telling me of the timeline laid before us on this earth. He caused me to focus on areas of Scripture I had never even considered. And after hours of absorbing and little sleep, I have finally been able to understand what I was missing. Nothing matters but Jesus. And the bible is thee only tool needed to accomplish His work. 

I read Revelations on Sunday from start to finish and my mind began to understand this timeline. So maybe all of these pulls and tugs and "humbling" experiences I have been experiencing are nothing more than God knocking on my heart to truly allow Him in. Let go of the pride and the "know it all Christian" that I am and to just let Jesus live in me. If He remains in me, I shall remain in Him. It's that simple.