Meeting People

Meeting people. Some find it exhilarating and exciting. Others begin to swear just thinking about it while still others could have zero emotion for such an interaction. Introvert or extrovert, it is still a task we must all so at some point in our lives. Think back to your best friend, your wife, husband or whoever. At some point you had to meet this person and go through the motions of talking and getting to know them. Sometimes you click instantly and the bond is unbreakable. Other times it can take a pretty decent amount of time to warm up to each other. I have even experienced that instant click that eventually fades. It's a weird occurrence. Moving as often as I have the past few years, meeting new people has become something of a norm. To be honest though... It is such a hard task for me. At least the last few places have been. Ok so since Colorado.. It's just really hard to put mysf out there and still be able to keep my spirits up if there isn't a connection. Or I am not myself and just do or say whatever I can to find common ground. Companionship and friendship is something so desirable yet so hard to accomplish. I have met a few people since I have been in Omaha and so far, they are great. Life is busy so it's hard to form those strong ties by spending time together. Sadly, I think the person I felt the biggest connection with is moving so here I am back at nearly square one trying to form another bond. I am just tired.. I don't want to put all the energy into it, only to turn around and get burned. Even when I don't get burned, it still drains me when they go away. I have relied on relationships SO much in my life thus far and now I feel like I need to reign it in. Find something else that energizes me. I am drained and I have nothing left to give. At least not tonight...