People

When you are in a different place alone, you discover many things. I consider myself a thoughtful person most days. By thoughtful, I mean I spend too much of my time thinking. Just ask those that have to deal with the aftermath..they know what can happen :) . I spent a lot of this last year by myself doing various things. I don't mind going out and doing activities alone, yet sometimes it is nice to share thoughts with someone when all is said and done. I go to many of the same places in Parker, see the same people normally at the same time of day. I believe some might call this routine. I interact with the same people most days. Yet, I went to the Farmer's Market this morning and my goodness, I couldn't wait to get out. This was hard for me because normally I love crowds and people. When I was in Portland, my favorite pastime was spent at the Starbucks at Pioneer Square in downtown just watching people. Watching them interact and conduct themselves made me wonder what other people see when they watch me. Not that I particularly care what the people of Portland thought, however, it was a good self reflection. I seem to feel more comfortable sitting in the corner watching from a far rather than being in the middle. What is this? Have I lost my security of being a loner?
Everyone should have a level of comfort in themselves, but where does that cross over into being a hermit? I can see how easily it happens. In conclusion.. I need to start meeting more people or I risk the status of a hermit. :)