Joy

Let your hearts be joyful and your voices sing praise.

I can't say that I am always happy. I am at a place in my life where I'm torn between whats best for me or whats best for others. Naturally, I think the advise would be to take care of yourself, however something is holding me back. Although I struggle to admit that I am "happy" where I am at, lately I have felt this joy and peace in my heart. So although I can't be happy, I am joyful to be blessed as I have been since moving to Colorado. I have found a church that I love, A wonderful, little coffee house where the owner knows me by name(don't laugh, he has great coffee!), a great view of the mountains every day, and fresh mountain air that I can't get enough of. So yeah, maybe my life isn't ideal and always easy, but I've got joy in knowing how much God loves me and is with me no matter what. He has become my best friend of late(even more than my computer :) ) and I love where I'm at. There are times where even when I'm having the worst day with the girls, it doesn't matter because I am loved.

There is this great song by Alli Rogers called "Who is this God?"
Who is this God that loves me still?
This love that keeps me safe when I run when I am young and foolish
Out of the dark that hides my face, I am coming apart you say my name
The ties of love you lead me out of the dark that hides my face
Who is this God that loves me still?
This love that heals me when I am bound when I am found and humbled
The love, you lead me, you bend to feed me, taught me to walk
who is this God that loves me still? This love that finds me when I am lost although it cost you everything.