Dig Deep

I have never had any problem with love. I think the first thing I ever knew how to do was love. It comes very naturally to me. I trust upon meeting a personal and am always the optimist. I have in an odd way of priding myself on my strength to "keep calm and carry on." Yeah I have emotional fits here and there, but as it happens, the sun always comes up the next day. Lately I have been struggling with that inner strength. I am reading this book my father gave me called "Grace in Ungracious Places" (great read btw) which is trying to teach me how to forgive myself. It has kind of rocked me to the core so I feel my innards feeling all vulnerable and such. I have done a little backsliding here and there and am trying to reground myself. So many good good things have happened to me the past few years. So many good people. People who have given and taught me more than words can describe. Thank you. Just you. From my knees I feel myself beginning to dig deep and really get my foundation properly laid out. So my encouragement to you this night is to dig deep. Love others but never forget to love yourself. We all need a dose of grace here and there. Take it and exhale. My ex boyfriend was always really great at calming me down when I got upset. He d always tell me to "Breathe babe, just breathe." At first I would want to get mad because I didn't want to stinking breathe, I wanted to be upset! Realizing later, I could still be upset but breathing always cleared my head and allowed me to focus more on the core of the issue. I guess my point in all of this is that these small things like love and grace and breathing all give us an extra edge to dig deep on those days we feel like we have nothing left. And when we fail once again as humans to do so ourselves, One is always waiting with a backup. Blessings, my friends.