There are few words to further explain my devotion the other night. This one hit like a ton of bricks. I'm struggling with control again as always. Wanting to control my life and giving it all up to God again. I spent the weekend at my parents with a couple of my siblings. Being with them is always so amazing. However, I always feel like as I drive away, I am shown just how far off I am in my own life. They keep me grounded, but how can I do it myself apart from them? How can I fight my insecurities and all the evil without constantly having them by my side? I deal with a lot of guilt. A guilt of being a burden on people in my life and making the wrong decision. I often feel like a small child constantly being reprimanded. I don't want to be a child anymore when I have worked so hard to be an adult. I guess it's all just part of getting from A to B.
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