What If...

So I am sitting here at my favorite spot in my favorite neighborhood of Omaha being serenaded by the sounds of jazz. There is this guy next to me designing some holiday calenders for the 402 which is a recording studio upstairs. He is so creative and just free lancing some sketches and ideas. All of a sudden I began thinking...what if?... Whaaaaaat if? What if I was to do something else other than be a nanny? What if I wanted to design? Or party plan? Or do something in fashion? What if I did something else? I love pretty things. I love industrial looks and patterns. Flowers and words and unique designs intrigue me. My Grandma passed away last week. She and I have hand written letters back and forth nearly every week for the past 6 years. The last year I have started collecting cards to try and keep up with her by always having one with me to send out a quick note here and there. This weekend in KC I found a group of cards by a company called  Rifle Paper Co. (Check them out!!). Their prints are so beautiful and fun. As I was on their site, I kept thinking...What if? What if? Its such a new thought for me. I'm not unhappy in my career but I do have a desire to create. A desire to make pretty things. I don't know...What if..? I just don't know what that means or how to even begin something like that. I will admit the 'what if' gets waaaaay bigger because I reaaaaally don't want to get a college degree in something to be creative. I want to just create. Hmmm.... What if...?